life.

i hate goodbyes. its the worst part of life. whether its expected or unexpected..
and whats a good goodbye? haha. i feel like no goodbye is good enough. if that makes any sense.

and i hate regret...
i dont want to live my life with any regrets, but of course its bound to happen.
"the future is now" ...thats what ive been trying to live by..dont plan for the future or put things off.. plan for now because now is what you might only have. within a second your whole life can change. for good or bad and sometimes you just have to LIVE.
i'd rather live then just exist

<3

whos ready for summer?!

i sure am :] & im so done with schooll. but we still have like 2 more weeks :\ shoot me pleaseeeee. BUT summer is going to be so much fun! :P

anyways, ill keep this blog short
please come to the chamber farewell concert sunday @ 3 in the Oneonta Congregational Church on 1515 Garfield Ave, South Pasadena :] it'll be an afternoon to remember
i cannot believe the year is over. Chamber has honestly been one of the best parts of my life
and i will always remember every single moment with chamber 08-09. i love you guys<33


"not to say goodbyee"

LOVEalways,
Nataliaaaa.

goodbye april hello may...

wow, time is going by so quickly. BUT I cannot wait till summer!
im pretty sure im going to the open call for american apparel tomorrow. wish me luck :P
I need to get a job so badly! And i LOVE american apparel,
all my money basically goes there so why not work there? haha.

yeah so i cant sleep, again. idk why but lately i havent been falling asleep till around 2.
a lot of the time i just lay in bed and think. I've been doing that a lot lately.
Its weird to think how quickly things can change, and it changes right in front of you.
A lot of the time you dont even notice. But when you finally do, it kind of scares you.
It feels almost unreal. do you know what I mean? Life can be so strange.

well anyways, april was a really fun month!
I went to peru, the beach, had a bonfire, I went on a photo safari with jonathan and diandra in hollywood and while we were there i went to amoeba for the first time, I went to cue (of course), saw hannah montana (pretty amazing movie haha), and just hung out with friends, alot.
hopefully may will bring even more ;]




well, i better go off to bed.
lovelovelove,
Natalia


p.s. ive been trying to write a blog for like a week now and it never worked :\
i hate my computer.

Sometimes...

i wish things could just work out or not be so complicated.
its like everyone else is doing fine execpt for you.
You look around and see how happy people are and wonder what you did wrong...
And you put on a fake smile to hide behind.
i never really understood how it happened. it just did. slowly fading..
and its been going on for 3 years. i just dont get how people can be so fake sometimes.
Honestly, sometimes i wish i could be a little kid again, everything was so much better.
And no one was fake. I'd rather be around people who are excepting.
Thats why i love my close and true friends. They're always there by my side.
And i am so thankful to have them in my life.
One true friend can out number 100 fake ones. And thank God for them.

well anyways, tonight was fun<3 and tomorrow will be the same! BONFIRE IN NEWPORT! cant wait :] p.s. did i say how amazing peru was?




i took these in lima, i think :]

lovealways,
Natalia.

Off to...

PERU! goodbye & see you on the 12th<3>